On the IVF train...

And we're going full steam ahead! 

So after battling the rain and the traffic, we managed to find a parking space outside the clinic... 

We really didn't know what to expect, and we were filled with so many different emotions...it was exciting.. but sad too. We shouldn't be here. We should just be able to decide one day that I feel strange and should take a test. But we were here. On a Thursday night in the rain. 

So we went inside. You would never think that you were inside an fertility clinic. Pretty lights and comfy sofas. We were given a shopping bag with their details on(Yea, might not pop to the shop with this!) filled with a notepad, pen, magazine, and lots of info.  

We spent 20 minutes with an IVF Specialist, who gave us more information and advice in those 20 minutes, than we have had in 3 years. We had a tour around the clinic, saw the scanners, the recovery room, the door to theatre... it all felt so real. And a board of photographs of all the babies that had been conceived there. **Sob sob**

So, what next? We have our first appointment in 10 days. Here I will get a pelvic ultrasound and more information. I am also having an AMH test to see if my eggs are compatible to egg share. 

I would like to go forward with egg sharing, not just because of the subsidised cost of treatment, but because it is giving something back. Without sperm donors, I wouldn't be able to have a baby with my husband. 

We need people to donate, to give couples a chance. Because infertility is no fun. It hurts. It seems like an endless tunnel at times. 

It breaks my heart that my husband cannot have children, but we have been given a chance of a family together, and that is priceless. 

So hopefully my eggs will be good enough. I will then go through screening, and then we wait for a recipient. Then the scary part begins. 

The specialist thinks it will take about 3 months to do all of this... but that it better than the 18 month list we are already on. It might not work, it might end in a BFN, but, it is a chance. We must be positive. 

It is going to be a tough journey... but it will be worth every pain and every tear. 

Little one...Mummy and Daddy will meet you soon!